today

today is the only free day in July that has all 24 hours belonging to me. all the other days have been spent hanging out(thanks dear friends for being such great company), in school, having a beautiful japanese Fender Telecaster slung around me, or underwater.

so, after the obligated delayed wake up, i realize that i probably have to grasp the slightly-less-than-2-weeks of free days that i have. i'm currently not very sure how i'm going to spend them, but i do know that FISHING will be one of the much coveted activities, regardless of what i do or do not catch.

but most importantly, i have to figure out how i have to spend my free days for God's sake. it's funny how i don't know what i'm supposed to do after the whole 'picking up the cross' thing, which i'm not even sure i will remember to do. in fact, it's such an obscure thing, sometimes.

1 key thing i managed to take away from the campus crusade camp was another reminder of how God is not the distant cosmic manipulator i keep imagining him to be. honestly, it's hard to stop thinking of Him that way because of how people keep saying 'don't worry, God is in control' whenever my days are down the drain. so i guess we of this faith will have to keep coming back to the same things once in a while.

You have kept count of my tossings;

put my tears in your bottle.

Are they not in your book?

Psalms 56:8