if my leg was long enough

i'd kick myself in the butt. ok maybe i can reach, but it's not really hard enough. 

went for the life con full dress rehearsal today. wonderful! and i feel like kicking myself for not jumping into it. ok actually i don't, i'm really thankful for all of these blissful moments of serenity and er.... dizzy dazes. 

it's just that i'm getting older(not old yet! i look 18!) and i think this year may have been my last shot at life concert. but God willing, if He grants another opportunity i'll jump into it. the drummer is pretty fantastic man. i love the way the bass drum is mic'd up, and each pound makes the floor tremble. so wonderful man. 

so, here is one song they sang. love this one

 Steven Curtis Chapman - Children of God

i know it's just a word but

you will think i'm an irritant for doing this but i've been a bit bothered by this popular phrase used lately. so i will break it down and copy the 2 separate meanings from macbook's dictionary. 

camera 1 |ˈkam(ə)rə|nouna device for recording visual images in the form of photographs, movie film, or video signals.PHRASESon (or off) camera while being filmed or televised (or not being filmed or televised) : on camera, she was error-prone and nervous.

whore |hôr|noun derogatorya prostitute.• a promiscuous woman.verb [ intrans. ](of a woman) work as a prostitute : she spent her life whoring for dangerousmen.• [often as n. ] ( whoring) (of a man) use the services of prostitutes : he lived by night, indulging in his two hobbies, whoring and eating.• debase oneself by doing something for unworthy motives, typically to make money : he had never whored after money.

yeah i know it's just a simple word, and i'm possibly acting like i have an umbrella up my posterior. but words don't just mean things, they also indicate things. for us who have been freed to live the holy lives, let's do our utmost best to live it. 
With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water
James 3:9-12
alright it's out of context cos i think this verse refers to cursing people. but this one came to mind. 

this is a bit sudden

ok this is a bit sudden but i'm going for a mission trip in 2 weeks time on the first weekend of april to kuala lipis. those interested pls let me know, there's like space for only 1 more. this trip should be fun fun fun because it's 3 AC guys. and it's a combination of Lee Kelvin's lame jokes and my lame jokes! powerhouse! 

ulterior interior anterior

been talking about intending to pray for someone, and the bible mentions that faith is useless without deeds. so this means that this person will have to be talked to. so now i'm wondering how we could go about doing this.

and now i realize the slight manifestations of our selfish nature. that when we have friends, it seems like somehow we try to gain something out of it. i wonder if we can ever go to a person with no agenda, no motive, but just as friends, just to hang out.

oh wait we can. i think we do that a lot. 

oops. 

but with how many people? hmmmm. not a lot, for me. 

but on to the pressing issue, i wonder if i can hang out with this guy, and not ignore his problem, but just be a friend. show how God loves people by showing God's love to His people. 

i think it's pretty tough. i'm not very familiar with this person(i keep my distance), like a lot of people. and maybe God is telling me to throw myself at His mercy by abandoning my privacy, by moving into a bigger shell. or getting out of my current one. 

Live Out Loud - Steven Curtis Chapman

Imagine this...I get a phone call from Regis 
He says, "Do you want to be a millionaire?" 
They put me on the show and I win with two lifelines to spare 
Now picture this...I act like nothing ever happened 
And bury all the money in a coffee can 
Well, I've been given more than Regis ever gave away 
I was a dead man who was called to come out of my grave 
And I think it's time for makin' some noise 

Wake the neighbors, get the word out 
Come on...crank up the music...climb a mountain and shout 
This is life we've been given made to be lived out 
So la la la la live out loud 
Live out loud, yeah 

Think about this...try to keep a bird from singing 
After it's soared up in the sky 
Give the sun a cloudless day and tell it not to shine 
Now think about this...if we really have been given 
The gift of a life that will never end 
And if we have been filled with living hope we're gonna overflow 
And if God's love is burning in our hearts we're gonna glow 
There's just no way to keep it in 

Wake the neighbors, get the word out 
Come on...crank up the music...climb a mountain and shout 
This is life we've been given made to be lived out 
So la la la la live out loud 
Live out loud, yeah 

Everybody, come on 
La la la...la la la la 
La la la live out loud 
I want to hear everybody sing 
La la la...la la la la 
La la la live out loud, loud, loud 

Every corner of creation is a living declaration 
Come join the song we were made to sing 

Wake the neighbors, get the word out 
Come on...crank up the music...climb a mountain and shout 
This is life we've been given made to be lived out 
So la la la la live out loud 
Live out loud, yeah

BJJ

ok so i've started learning brazilian jiujitsu with wilfred, and maybe jem is gonna join in soon. i even made a lame joke about it(bjj costs an arm and leg!) but that's another story. simply put, this sport is pretty fun, offers a really intensive workout(i almost vomitted after last training, and that was the 2nd time in my life. i never even vomitted after bball although i experience another set of problems) and i think i feel a lot safer with the knowledge(or delusion) that i can pretty much defend myself. although i'm still getting bullied/owned by about everyone i've sparred with. the closest i ever came to winning was when i used an illegal lock. yeah that's how sad it is. but anyway, here's a rather glamorous vid for BJJ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzHraEVEaY4&feature=related

But other than that, most of the time we are basically molesting each other to get to advantageous places. i am seriously not kidding about this. GUYS, if you want to impress GIRLS, do NOT use BRAZILIAN/GRACIE JIUJITSU or any other form of ground fighting. just. don't.  

i don't know whether to thank you or to whack you

ok Jem, i don't know whether to thank you or to whack you.

to thank you, is because you lent me that fantastic Shane and Shane album. you know how when some musicians are REALLY good, other musicians somehow just appear less talented? with the exception of Joe Satriani, Brooke Fraser, Lifehouse, Bela Fleck and the Flecktones, Organissimo, Salvador(hopefully i have not left out important others. JOHN PETRUCCI AND DREAM THEATRE ARE NOT INCLUDED IN THIS LIST MUAHAHAHAHAHA), i feel like swearing off other musicians and trampling their cd into the ground. 

i'd wanna whack you cos you didn't introduce me to this band earlier or lend me their cd earlier. 

i mean, it's not like i didn't introduce you to Joe Satriani or Brooke Fraser. in fact i introduced you to them over and over again over the course of... hmmm..... ok ever since i knew you. 

plus the fact that i save you from long tongued, agile, fragile, fat, bloated, obese, muscular and female zombies on an average of 5 times a week. 

alright for those of you who are confused, I am raving about how good Shane and Shane are. Shane and Shane is an acoustic Christian band. they are good. listen to them now. i have already included them in my favourite music list in facebook.

and i'm also saying that i help jem a lot in left 4 dead. a lot. and he's rather unappreciative of it.