it's pretty shameful, how i've manage to sort of relegate my qt and stuff.
it's great that i've managed to shift it to the morning, but i guess even a spiritual thing like qt would be affected by my inability to think clearly within a couple of hours from waking up.
and so, it's silent now.
no awe, no wonder, no amazement.
just, trudging on. it's another one of those times.
it's disgusting, really, how i can easily forget my Saviour in light of material, immediate and tangible(or even intangible) things. and what makes it even worse is how i always end up dismissing my lack of desire(for God) within 10 minutes.
thank God for His grace and mercy; new every morning.
i want to yearn, to ache for God. but i can't. and i know, the usual disclaimer, feelings aside, blah blah blah. but, i want my heart and flesh to cry out. i have tasted and seen, and now i want it all over again.
what could be wrong with that?
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