Do you want to?

"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Do we want to?

just had a thought.

Do we actually want to love these people?

we're supposed to, but is it within ourselves? 

Paul crucified his old man. 

I think mine is still alive and kicking. 

struggling to put a hold on me.

i feel sanctimonious.

because when people curse this certain fellow, i manage to keep my face calm, treat it like a laughing matter, like it's no big deal. but the truth is i don't even wanna see his face. i don't even want to hear his voice. and i know it's no justification, that not saying anything or doing anything TO him is better than what i would do. but there's a gut feeling that there's something deeper that is undistinguised and yet manifested. 

So plaster saint, take off the bleached robe

sewn from rags and tattered rope.

show the face behind the mask

let it be changed to something that lasts

give it up

give it up.

turn the stonied blackened heart you don't want

to the scarlet, pulsing, God-given one

give it up

give it up

the scorching tears withheld too long

it's time to change your surname to Ong(oh SHIT THAT'S RANDOM!)

-sorry can't remain so serious for so long-